here's what i've learned.....
any type of candy... chocolate, eye candy, or nose candy is probably not the best idea in copious amounts. anything other than lollipops and dancing is a bit too much for my constitution.
that i can listen to the cure all day every day.... for probably the rest of the fall and it will feel like summer all over again.
that awkward circumstances aren't as uncomfortable as the people that involve them... that i thrive on such interactions... nevertheless, it isn't my job to make the apprehensive come around.
that being there doesn't make me any less available.
that she had a better weekend than i did, and i still don't mind.
that my moods are occasionally cyclical.... going in up, down but the shock of this weekend has put me in an emotional stasis.... one of which i am still waiting to absorb.
that hangovers suck... but nothing some water and rest couldn't cure.
that for as much as i don't mind the lack of definitiveness in my life, i'm starting to dislike and almost detest the gray matter that surrounds it.
that i do miss him.
that i don't miss you.
that i don't know or want to know you anymore.
that i'm beginning to understand you and i like what you mean to me.
that you're the best handler i've ever met and i should have taken you up on your proposition... one for which i will be kicking myself in the ass for a million times over.
that maybe she is right. which makes me wrong.
maybe giving up on it all isn't a bad thing.
and that it's time to grow up.
maybe.
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